Today I was spending time with my dogs and it brought to mind how much you always liked animals. You would have liked my dogs especially Gretchen. She has a personality kind of like yours. She is a force to be reckoned with! She loves everybody and never met a stranger just like you. I can just picture the two of you sitting here together with her on your lap. I wish you were here to do that. I miss you so much.
On your Birthday me, Justin and Victoria went to your grave with flowers, a card and ballon and sang you Hppy Birthday. i hope you heard us. It was good to spend that time with them. We went out to eat and shared memories of you. Tori talked about how you used to sing and dance when you were in the car listening to the radio. We miss you and love you so much. I thought about the many birthdays I did share with you which were most of them since the time you were born. I wish that I could have sharede this one with you in person too. I love and miss you every day. Many people lit birthday candles for you. You are still impacting lives Keara and you will never be forgotten.
I remember the day 34 years ago when you came bounding into this world after only 2 1/2 hrs. of labor. After that you continued to bound into everything!! When I looked into your eyes that day I felt such love and knew that our souls would be conneted forever. This is the 4th Birthday since you have been gone and there is not a moment that you are not with me all day every day. I want to celebrate your Birthday and your life but it is so hard because I want to celebrate with you. I want to remember all the good times and not the fact that you are no longer here. I have not been able to do that and am not sure if I ever will. You were so beautiful Keara and I will never forget your giggle and infectious laughter. Your kindness to everyone and your love of animals and children and your love for your family. Even when we didn't get along Inever doubted that you loved me and know that you knew how much I loved you. I hope Grandma and Grandpa are throwing you a big party today. I love and miss you so much. Happy Birthday to you. Love your Mama
I went to the Parents of Murdered Children conference In Cincinatti. It was good to be there with so many others who understand the pain of losing their loved ones to murder. I really felt you there with me. I went to a workshop that talked about trying to have a good bad day and gave suggestions on how to do that. I am going to try. I know you would want me to feel better and I think I will but it is going to take time. The conference brought up so many memories of you. There are a lot stored in my mind, and I'm sure even more will surface. You were one of a kind Keara and I miss you so much. Love your Mama.
I really enjoyed the trip to the beach. The opportunity to see Justin and Victoria with their cousins, and aunts and uncles. It did my heart good to be with everyone. I missed you so much though. You should have been there too. I know you were there in all of our hearts. I felt your presence there and I want to believe that you were part of our being able to see a turtle nest hatch and baby turtles walk into the ocean. In my mind I saw you at the beach with all us. I love and miss you every day.
